Overwhelmed.

I've started many posts only to quit half way through. There's a lot of pressure (self-made) when you haven't made a blog post in 51 days to make the first post awesome, specifically when it's the first post of a NEW year! So unfortunately, this post will probably be far from awesome and all the little tidbits I wanted to mention in the first post of the year will be forgotten for another post. Because that's the other thing...while I'm driving I think of incredible blog posts and throughout the day I take pictures of things thinking "I'll blog about that." And yet, when I sit down to put finger to key; nothing, nada, blank brain. Grr.

On the 21st day of the new year I started writing the following: (I've added in some up to date comments in red.)

"I can't stop laughing at the fact that this is my very first post of 2012! I guess that means I better make this particular post spectacular. It's probably best to describe the last 21 days with some bullet points because I have had various car issues (which have continued) and shed numerous tears; I have had wild dreams and large mood swings (causing me to falsely think I was pregnant); I have worked out and almost passed out (also causing false pregnancy hopes); and I have had dizzy spells (again, see above) and racing rhythms. But I'm here and completely sure that this will not be my reality for the whole year, so I'm happy (still true).

• Tally for 2012 in regards to car items replaced: Temperature Sensor, Water Pump, Hoses, Radiator, Spark Plugs, Fan Belt, and Brake Fluid (plus...two new power steering pumps). Yeah, I'm ready for a break when it comes to visiting mechanics. Fortunately for me, my daddy is amazing with cars so he drove 5 hours to install the radiator so I wouldn't be hit with outrageous labor rates. He also is quite skilled in calming me down when I'm trying to navigate across 4 lanes of rush hour traffic as my car is losing power steering, heating up and shutting down. Don't know what I'd without him (also still true and not just because he's phenomenal with cars)."

Back to the now:

I'm pretty sure I stopped there because I got all sentimental thinking about my dad. And then getting angry with myself for not writing a post about him on his birthday. What is it that they say about good intentions? Or would 'it's the thought that counts' apply better here? Regardless of my failure to write a proper post about my dad it does not mean in any way that he's not deserving of one. He's by far one of the most influential men in my life; I trust him completely; he is loving, kind, and supportive; he has never failed me; and I love him dearly. I am so fortunate to have him and I am very aware of how rare it is to have a father like mine.

And now I am blank again but less overwhelmed so yay! Hopefully my next post won't take 51 days.